There is flat feeling for this new year. Trying to keep my head above the water for years. Somehow I feel numb.
So big bro is moving in to his new house on December 28th and mom is having anxiety attacks for that. Yesterday she called him and asked if he would pick us up on Sunday and he said no. His new house is very far now.
Yesterday afternoon I still didn't realize what happened. She just snapped. She said her sons don't need her anymore. And no one wants to be near her anymore.
It hits me, she had become too attached with big bro after the Sunday routine.
I just hope it does not start over again. Let's just hope the depression doesn't sink in again.
Kinda confused how to make a happy family with just the both of us. Since the idea of old people still in there. The hopes that at least one of her son would guarantee her old age life is never gonna happen.
I know that she never expected a daughter had to fill all the responsibility of her sons. But I think the sooner she accepted the fact, the faster she can move on.
It is just so sad to see her with no willingness to live this morning.
I just don't understand why after all that happened, she still wants one of her son to take care of her.
What do I need to do to make her "get" it?
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