Random Things in my Indecisive Life: 2016

Sunday, October 9, 2016

The Mom Case

This is written to track Moms health. With outer influence and response. So yesterday after I went out with my brother and family, moms condition is deteriorating. After hearing how much he spent for their bed, she felt kinda depressed.

I have been worried this kind of things will happen when we take xanax off her medication. Sometimes she can be very aggressive at night and angry about all stuff.

We have been consuming Isagenix diet supplement for a month. The only one really works I think is Ionix drops. Before she could be very angry day and night. Now we can reduce it at night only. She is consuming the Ionix in the lunch time. Although the diet don't go well, she is still fat, at least one of the supplements work.

So yesterday she talked about her fear. Her fear of being put in an old people's home. I think that she is not healthy yet. Still thinking of getting a nurse just to take care of her. But she does not want to be treated that way. But still dont want to do her stuff on her own. Like getting a glass of water for her own drink.

What do you think I should do?

Friday, October 7, 2016

Addiction as a disease

Learning about what behinds every man's thought have always intrigued me. Sometimes i use myself as a lab rat or other people around me. I think it is quite normal for someone who has always been curious about human minds.

Yesterday i saw a TV show about addiction. Yes I still watched TV. Addiction to shopping, sex, adrenaline rush etc works the same way as addiction to drugs. The effort to fulfill the addiction, the rush, and the guilt feeling after it is done is very typical to all addiction. And also there is a doctor that said it is very common that sexual abuse at a very young age could have caused that. Although that is not always the case.

Still it is still interesting stuff to know. It turns out everyone has addiction to one or more things that he or she may acknowledge of. Even I had a few addiction I need to fix. Little habits such as buying shampoo when there is a new brand on the market, or soaps. Buying stationary that I might need someday. Which piles up and fill all my room to live. I never realized that until I saw that TV show. And it has never been such a big deal when I live in the big family who always runs out of soap and shampoo. It started to pile up when all my brothers are married and out of the house. My Dad passed away too. Now sometimes I bought things more than I can consume.

Not just buying though, sometimes you get bonuses from suppliers and I tend to keep them too. Until someday I had to move out from the house to an apartment only to find... stuffs. Lots of stuff to empty. I just realized that I had 100 boxes of detergent, 100 pouches of dish washing liquid and yes I am lowering the number because I can't really count it. It was more than that. I had became a hoarder.

The thing about those stuff though. The all had an expiry date and I end up using lots of expired products. That sucks